I Needed You

I needed you Brown Bear
And Twinnings Boy too
I needed you to tell me
To look after you.

But once you’ve said those words
I can never let you go.
I’ve let them all go before
And now they’ll never know;
How I let them walk out that door
After their anger made me sore.
So let me feel you and you feel me
Let me hurt with you until I’m raw.

I’m not angry or upset
But let me feel it in this Bed.

That room of ours
It served a purpose
A space for two
Common Grounds
But was it all worthless?

I let you into my hiding place
I hugged and held you
‘Til you found your Solace.
You smiled and I smiled too.

I made you laugh and walk alongside me
You kissed my furrowed brow and said, “I wish that we were home, in bed.”
I made us both cups of tea
But when that water runs; so does my precious memory.

I lost myself in that secret place
I lost the anger from my face.

I ran to you and you to me
I expected to hate you and be set free
But you softened my big brown eyes, you see
So, I will let you do you and me do me
But don’t tell them about me.
Don’t jump to my defence
I’m used to them being angry
They don’t know enough yet.

I will hold your hand
And show you a way
But I can’t promise to be strong and stay.